This title is misleading, because I can’t claim to be an expert in staying motivated.
Actually, can you be a reverse expert? I’m sort of an expert at procrastination and being totally unmotivated.
Am I the only one who does life so much better when they’re busy most of the time?
The last few months out of tour, my life was pretty regimented. I worked long hours and I knew if I was going to get any blogging done, I had to wake up early or squeeze it into very specific pockets of time.
I actually graduated from undergrad in three years with a double major while working part time. I suspect this was because there was just absolutely no time to slow down and get lazy. Things had to get done when they had to get done.
Currently, I work 3 days a week. That’s the plan for the summer. The other 4 days are… soul suckingly dull errr, full of potential. Except I can’t seem to use that potential.
The struggle is real, folks. #firstworldproblems
I have this feeling of entitlement, because I didn’t really have weekends for several months.
I also have this looming awareness of the large pay cut I’m living under until September. So whenever I think of something fun I could be doing, I think of how much it costs and then… I climb back into bed.
Furthermore, I’m mindful of all the things I could be doing – looking for freelance work, building a shot glass display case, learning a foreign language, heck, even just cleaning my room – and I cannot for the life of me muster up energy to do it.
At the moment I have enough energy to binge watch Orphan Black, shuffle down to the kitchen and get food and go to the bathroom. This is what my existence allows. I don’t even think I’m trying to beat the Blerch anymore.
I think I might be the Blerch.